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Name: Nicole
State: Fairyland
Birthday: 9/7/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: horses, horseback riding (i love my Roland); mu-sak, which is one of the great joys of my life. if you simply must know all my favs, just IM me; drawing, running (track); going online; reading; writing.
Expertise: well....um....i can spell my name...
Message: message me
Member Since:
11/2/2003
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| ok, go here. it's my new xanga. you will see no more updates on this one -
http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=xtheautumnx | | |
| guys, please listen to/read this one:
i hate all of this. all these people completely messing up their lives for the sake of being cool. people i thought i knew, people i thought were smarter than this, people that i really care about... they're all just killing themselves with this. do the drugs make you feel better about yourself? do they feel warm and fuzzy? do you think they'll make you cool? or maybe you think that people will love you if you do them. even if it's just because you've never done it before, it's all the same. for any reason, it's completely and utterly just screwing yourself over. and over. and over. yes, it's real cool to have an infected brain, and to be completely addicted. god, why can't you see that? it's so bad, what you're doing. what good can possibly come of it? if you know, please tell me. cuz all i can see from it is my friends making horrible descisions.i hate it more than anything. i love these people, but the things they're doing... i hate the feeling of helplessness at hearing about the things they're doing, feeling like i can't stop them. i care about them more than they know, and this is killing me. you're killing yourself. drugs aren't the fucking answer.
i love you so much molly. i'm always here for you. | | |
| today i went and hung out with molly and the band kids. i.e - joe hilling and kayleigh trumbore. they are nice kids, i like them a whole lot. we just kind of slouched around and talked, and did homework, and listened to music. and it was fun.
that was the only good thing about my day. | | |
| today after school my dad and i went to visit grandmom in her new apartment place. it's not really an apartment though. it's very new, and smells, looks, and feels like a hotel. it got me quite depressed, cuz that place is where most people will be spending the rest of their lives. i couldn't help but think that it's a sugar-coated institution, except that the people aren't crazy- they're old. it's so horrible. i don't think i could stand being caged like that, where the receptionists are young and polite, but get to go home at the end of the day. instead, you go up to your room and look out at the highway, and the perfect grass. then you go to sleep, then wake up and start the day full of nothing all over again. i was in that place, and as i looked around, i promised myself - i'm not going to end up like this. | | |
| I SAW JACKIE BARRY AND KAYLEIGH TRUMBORE AND JOE HILLING TODAY! my life has been made complete. | | |
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